I understand the differences, the excuses, and the defends people make. I just do not accept them. I cannot accept the differences. That’s why I run away. I run away almost all the time.
All the time
I’m fake as fuck. I criticize people, I’m not better. But I have the right to. You don’t win if you spill truthful words. You need to be fake.
I was born to follow the plan. Back in high school, I used to laugh at those followed their parents’ plan. I was confident about my future. Until now, I discover my two most disappointments : I’m no talented and my parents fooled me well.
They are too smart. Yes, I can never be as smart as them. They are architects, they are smart, and they are cruel.
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I have people that care about me, people that are always ready to listen, but I always feel alone because I always defend my actions that cause the problems. I always want to feel that I am innocent. I’m not. Not anymore.
I understand the rumors from mouths that wishes to have backgrounds like mine - not rich, but enough to show off and travel. But I do not accept those. I spread rumors. And in the end, I hate those that believe me. They give me 2 seconds of comfortable moment then increase the level of my insecurity.
I am insecure, in almost everything.
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I should runaway. I should have.
But those from the other side of America keep me holding on, then he keeps me holding on. They are the very first reasons I try to hold on to.
We have differences too. But I accept these differences because …. just because.
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